Plans while cooking
Me: “When I am a popular socialite, which I will be, I will have dinner parties every weekend. I will have a favorite brand of alcohol, and drink it all the time. And go into the garden to pull up weeds, still drunk, the next morning.”
“That’s your perfect life?”
“Yes.”
Only love
Life is cruel more often than not.
-Natalie Walker, song “Only Love”
Moon 20% full…perfect crescent. I spoke today to Heru (Horus), Lord of the Horizon, when the sun set. Without looking directly into the sun, but feeling the light from behind my eyelids, and speaking out to that.
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Informal Sunday training today consisted of just two other people, a Shihan and Michael-san (in 6th-4th Kyu). It was a good opportunity for me to get personal help on the Kihon Happo among other technique. I find myself always going to practice, even on Sundays, or when Sensei cannot come to teach. Training stirs me. I feel worked spiritually, so that even though I fail way more often than not, my act of trying is important. I come to training not expecting to get better fast, but because I would not miss an opportunity to try.
It’s got to be that on off days with no training, I get agitated and need to move. The dojo went out for sushi recently, and one Shihan said,
“I heard that you train a lot?”
“Yes,” I replied, “I try to go to every training, and Sundays. And I go to the mat room in early afternoon, when it’s empty, and just practice till I can’t anymore.”
“That’s very good. There aren’t many people who do this…it’s called,” he thought to remember the term for self-training, and which I forget now too.
It is interesting how the dojo, at least the upper belts, appear to know information as if they were a single organism. No, I do not mean to make fun of my seniors– I mean, it is fascinating how they pick up on things, simultaneously. Most newcomers do not come often to training and drop out. I’m not trying to make an impression on anyone, but it does please me that others notice my dedication. 
I missed the last full moon sabbat due to papers and work, but I hope to do a new moon esbat tonight. Haha, not to make up for it, but because this stirring sensation is prime for working magic. Bright Blessings!!
photo: Annieta on Flickr
